misschrystal

Ever have one of those days when you just know that something isn’t quite right?  When you’re tired all the time, hungry all the time and you have far too many GOOD hair days in a row?  Okay….than you know what I’m talking about.  So I was out to dinner with my two best girlfriends and noticed that my fingernails were really long and pretty.  VERY unusual for me since I’m a fixer upper kind of gal and usually am up to my elbows in dirt from my gardens.  So when Tanya’s eyes got really big and she realized what my comments were leading toward it was the immediate end of the meal and a beeline to the nearest Walgreens for a pregnancy test.  Just to fill the general public in on a little back-story here……I’m 38 years old and my children are all grown and out of the house.  For me to be pregnant at this stage in my life would mean starting all over.  I swear that those tests are the longest 3 minutes of my entire life!!!!  Much to the delight to all - it kindly said ‘not pregnant’ across the digital readout screen.  Was I relieved?  Yes.  Was I a little disappointed?  Yes.  Talk about a double edged sword.  There’s just something about babies that give you a sense of immortality.  For me it would offer the chance to be a better mommy than I was the first time around.  Most women have more than one child, perhaps just to see if they could do it better the second or third or even forth time around.  I wonder that often.  There’s ALOT of things that I’d do differently this time.  Oh well, guess that it’s not my turn to be the pregnant one.  No worries……hee hee……I’ll keep practicing though………

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